Sunday, October 31, 2010
Friday, October 29, 2010
Thursday, October 28, 2010
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
Monday, October 25, 2010
Why is it that something simple like being at a petting zoo can cause full "I'll make a scene if you try to pick that thing up off the floor because I'm so grossed out right now" panic attacks but my kid choking results in calm relaxed non-panicking problem-solving mommy?
Sunday, October 24, 2010
Friday, October 22, 2010
Thursday, October 21, 2010
Sunday, October 17, 2010
Saturday, October 16, 2010
Thursday, October 14, 2010
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
"It's only October! Chill out."
I'm type A, I can't help myself! So here I sit getting excited about the holidays, and I've come to this conclusion: Christmas is harder with two. With one you buy them the gifts you want them to have; they open said gifts; you eat some cookies and drink some nog and call it a day.
I want things to be fair and equal, and my mother provided a compulsively good model for that. Which is kinda interesting because she was an only child, so it's not like she had any experience to pull from.
Anyway, so I find myself wanting to model fairness even now. Despite the fact that Henry is too young to notice or care about presents and we don't need ANY baby or cruising-toddler type things. Which puts me in an odd situation, I mean what do I buy the kid, socks?!
Jack is too young to understand about money so I can (and will) skip the worrying about whether or not I'm spending the same amount on each child. I do, however, need the number of gifts to be the same.
So what do you get for a baby when you don't want to get another chewy, ratting, talking playskool or fisherprice or melissa and doug toy? All I've got so far is a custom embroidered cloth diaper (which Henry will wear but is clearly a present for me.) Ideas? Suggestions?
(I should mention they are able to share clothes, so I don't need winter or spring wardrobe stuff either!)
Monday, October 11, 2010
Saturday, October 9, 2010
If only I was a size smaller...
If only I was married...
If only I had clear skin, more free time, less free time, could sew, had a maid... whatever.
We put these conditions on being happy, more relaxed or being allowed to buy new jeans.
Here's what I tell myself:
If only we had sold this friggin' house...
If only I didn't have the skin of a 14 year old boy...
If the kids were just a little older...
If I were on anti-anxiety medication...
... then life would be easier.
How dumb am I? Life isn't easy. And frankly if it were easy when things went our way it wouldn't be nearly as satisfying... it'd be like "I just won the lottery... must be Tuesday."
So here's my question: What do you tell yourself "If only..."
If you've never commented before or rarely comment I'd love to hear from you, just like I want to hear from my 'regulars'. Be honest!
(This is another late-night blog that I'm choosing to publish and not delete. I think I might be turning over a new leaf!)
Friday, October 8, 2010
Honestly I'm just so impressed he didn't try to A. keep it B. open it for himself or C. fight Charlie for it after he opened it.
Wednesday, October 6, 2010
I will not delete this post. I will try to remember to use spell check. (In the interest of full disclosure: This is not one I've started before and failed to finish.)
Trying to sell my home SUCKS. It makes me feel like my whole life is on hold. Even thought I try to live, really live, in spite of the HOURS it takes to clean my house every few days and the 50% of Jack's toys and 50% of Henry's baby gadgets that are in storage in my in-laws basement.
Which brings me to the upside- My In-Laws. To say our relationship used to be strained was the understatement of the century. It was awk-ward! Then we put our house on the market and when we had a showing and two small kids to feed and keep entertained our best option was crashing at their place (which is practically down-the-street.) Well showing after open house after showing things became not awkward. They became, dare I say it, FUN! Instead of worrying about what it would be like the next time I saw them, I looked forward to it. They've been a great help, feeding us, entertaining us and helping watch the boys. Putting the house on the market has fundamentally altered the fabric of our relationship.
I still desperately want to sell my house but man has it been great that it's taking a while!
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
Am I concerned about putting my actual thoughts out there? Am I worried that you're going to think I'm talking about YOU? I don't even know, really. It just seems there is a hump that I can't get over. I don't have writers block- I'm clearly able to get all the thoughts out on paper but there's something about the revision that makes me think "Why would anyone want to read..." "This is going to make me sound..."
I'm not that cool. Why am I worrying about this?!
Monday, October 4, 2010
Maybe next year we'll take the kids one weekend and another weekend we'll go by ourselves without the kids. How decadent would that be?!
Sunday, October 3, 2010
6 Months?! Already?!
Henry, you're such a sweet, happy boy! Your big brother Jack has started to include you in his activities and you couldn't be more enamoured with him! You can sit on your own. You love food, all food. You're easy to put down for a nap, which Mommy finds to be very helpful! The other day I was holding your hands while you stood and you tried to take a step!
Friday, October 1, 2010
When Henry went down for his afternoon nap I made Butternut Squash soup (which was Yum! btw) and Jack proceeded to play conductor for the duration for the cooking and blending. He gave me my train ticket and then took my ticket "to punch it" about 50 times.
All of a sudden Jack has taken to playing with Henry. He wants his little brother to be involved. After not thinking much of him for the last 5.5 months I'm so psyched to see them starting to really bond!