Wednesday, February 2, 2011

If I'm being completely honest

Things are not going so hot right now.

I'm really overwhelmed by the state of my life, I feel like there's too much to do and not enough time to do it in. Jack's birthday party is this weekend and I feel totally unprepared for it. My goodie bag count has been wrong twice now and I'm going to have to go to the store again. I don't know what I'm doing for his cake. My house is a complete wreck, there's stuff EVERYWHERE in all the wrong rooms in all the wrong places and I don't have time to clean it with the kids running around messing it up all the time.

Henry hasn't had a good nap in 7 days. He'll sleep for 20 minutes to 1 hour and THAT'S IT. FOR THE WHOLE DAY. The rest of the day he's so cranky (probably because he's sleep deprived that I have to hold him. He weighs 24 pounds! I don't want to hold him all day. You'd think he'd be so damn exhausted from not sleeping that he'd sleep through the night, but no. He'll gladly be awake from 3-4am (like last night).

I'm so stressed out I didn't go to yoga yesterday because I didn't want my bad energy to mess up everyone else there. I need a vacation from my life, but when I look on the calendar it appears that I can't hope for one anytime soon.

Oh, yeah, and yesterday? Henry bit my boob so hard there's a one inch long cut (with blood and everything) from him. Awesome.

I will now attempt to put Henry down for a nap (again). Wish us luck!


Emily said...

It's funny how powerful words can be. Putting all of that into words and putting it out there into the world makes it seem not so bad. Really, I just need to get organized (and find a way to get Henry to sleep ever again). One step at a time.

Sara said...

I just started reading your blog and it's great :) I totally identify with you and just want to say I hope it gets better. I won't say "Hang in there" or any BS like that, cause that never makes me feel better. I've got a 3 1/2 year old and a 6 week old and my life is a walking wreck. I'm a control freak and it just hurts to even look around my living room. Oh yeah, and I go back to work on Monday - working from home with my newborn. Joy.

Emily said...

Sara- I totally agree! Some days when people ask how things are I want to be like "my life is a wreck!"

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