Wednesday, February 2, 2011

If I'm being completely honest

Things are not going so hot right now.

I'm really overwhelmed by the state of my life, I feel like there's too much to do and not enough time to do it in. Jack's birthday party is this weekend and I feel totally unprepared for it. My goodie bag count has been wrong twice now and I'm going to have to go to the store again. I don't know what I'm doing for his cake. My house is a complete wreck, there's stuff EVERYWHERE in all the wrong rooms in all the wrong places and I don't have time to clean it with the kids running around messing it up all the time.

Henry hasn't had a good nap in 7 days. He'll sleep for 20 minutes to 1 hour and THAT'S IT. FOR THE WHOLE DAY. The rest of the day he's so cranky (probably because he's sleep deprived that I have to hold him. He weighs 24 pounds! I don't want to hold him all day. You'd think he'd be so damn exhausted from not sleeping that he'd sleep through the night, but no. He'll gladly be awake from 3-4am (like last night).

I'm so stressed out I didn't go to yoga yesterday because I didn't want my bad energy to mess up everyone else there. I need a vacation from my life, but when I look on the calendar it appears that I can't hope for one anytime soon.

Oh, yeah, and yesterday? Henry bit my boob so hard there's a one inch long cut (with blood and everything) from him. Awesome.

I will now attempt to put Henry down for a nap (again). Wish us luck!

4 comments:

Emily said...

It's funny how powerful words can be. Putting all of that into words and putting it out there into the world makes it seem not so bad. Really, I just need to get organized (and find a way to get Henry to sleep ever again). One step at a time.

Sara said...

I just started reading your blog and it's great :) I totally identify with you and just want to say I hope it gets better. I won't say "Hang in there" or any BS like that, cause that never makes me feel better. I've got a 3 1/2 year old and a 6 week old and my life is a walking wreck. I'm a control freak and it just hurts to even look around my living room. Oh yeah, and I go back to work on Monday - working from home with my newborn. Joy.

Emily said...

Sara- I totally agree! Some days when people ask how things are I want to be like "my life is a wreck!"

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